blogger's cramp

I realize I have become a failure at blogging! Believe it or not, I have written dozens of them in my head but I guess that doesn't count if you can't read them! I'm pretty sure many of my regular readers have quit checking this site and I don't blame you!! Now my busy life has taken a completely different turn; I have my daughter and grandson living with me. It is totally wonderful but with an 8-month old in the house, he usually trumps all and demands our attention so the little work I might have gotten done, goes by the wayside. Darrell has been gone for a month of tour in the US and it would have been a miserably long month had I not had the company of my daughter & grandson. I can't think of anything in the world that brings more joy than being a grandma! Perhaps because of my up-bringing as an MK and the myriad of goodbye's and separations that I endured as a child, I find myself always thinking about them leaving and how terrible it will be. They are still here for at least 3 more months but I constantly wonder how I will endure saying goodbye to this precious little human being who has captivated my heart forever. It will be terrible, I know, but I also know that many other grandma's have survived the separation and kept the bond alive and strong. Sometimes, (well, lots of times) I dream of just living a "normal" life and not being torn from my children and grandchildren all the time. I realize there are many grandparents in the US that only see their children and grandchildren once or twice a year but somehow it's different being on the other side of the world. Ah, this life of pain and separation...but we press on:)