ramblings

It is somewhat dangerous for one to begin writing without having properly thought out what one wants to write. But I feel like writing, so I'll begin and see where it takes us! These past weeks have been incredibly busy with absolutely no margin in our lives. We really need to work on that! At times we are good at making time for rest and restoration but right now life's demands are causing us to run in 10 different directions at once. I am so looking forward to our plane landing in Chicago on June 10th and longing for time with our kids, our families and friends. Rest is on the way and I know it will arrive none too soon. In the meantime, we want to finish strong in this place that we've come to love. It breaks my heart to think of leaving some of my Kurdish friends, especially those who have come to call me "Mom". But we know our job is done here. We know capable people will take up the mantle and carry on what we have started. Yet we've learned that you can't pass on your relationships to someone else. The deep bond that we've developed with so many will be left broken and that is hard to deal with. Just as our hearts are broken, we will be breaking others' hearts too. This has been our life for the past 27 years and it doesn't get any easier. It's impossible to carry on relationships from 5 countries and numerous cities where we've lived & served. I live with a sense of loss at the deep friendships that have gone by the wayside because of distance and years of separation. Facebook has helped to alleviate that somewhat!! We will soon be setting our eyes on a new place and start all over again. Each time we start over, I wonder if my heart has enough room for any more love. It has to be something divine because humanly speaking, I am empty & dry. But God keeps imparting an incredible love for people into my heart. I pray this love will never run dry and that I will always have room for more love & more relationships.